For those who know me and those who don’t, what I have to say is a way to just put everything out there….
So I’ve been gone for a while not that anyone has noticed but I needed time to figure out the cyclone of events that have over taken my life. I have been happy, sad, alone and everything in between. I have not been what anyone expected and I have not fulfilled all of my promises but my time spent was not in vain. Though things have definitely changed I hold no hate, resentment, or regret for any of it. I do not hate, blame, or hold a grudge. I know that just like these friends that have passed me by along the way that I had a hand in it too and I accept full responsibility for my part in this. I do not wish any one harm or to be wronged in any way. In fact I would like to say I’m so proud of you to see how far you gone. I will say I am beginning to love the person I’m becoming and I have to thank the one I love for reminding me I am not unloveable and I’m only as forgettable as I allow myself to be. I hope that while I’ve been discovering all these new heightened things about myself that you all too have done the same! And I will take the time to brag that though I am not able to have children I am a proud puppy mother and am absolutely in love with this new role! Life is not perfect but at least I’m living, at least I’m loving, and at least I’m learning to mold the life I’ve always wanted. It’s not been easy but if it was it wouldn’t be worth it! Cheers to everyone and good thoughts for you all!!!!!
